Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Well, I'm guilty.
I haven't updated you guys on anything since April and I feel horrible for it. Because truth is, a lot has happened but a lot hasn't changed.
It's now Summer, and it won't be until late-August until I get to be Jason's roommate. The good thing is, we have a week long camping trip planned for mid-July and also subsequent visits to each other's hometown. He should be coming here mid-June.
To say I miss him would be an understatement. However, it doesn't feel nearly as bad as Christmas Break did because at the time I was worried to death about whether he still liked me. Now I know that he not only likes me, but loves me. And I love him too. He is everything I want in a boyfriend (and possibly a future husband). He is amazingly good looking even though I haven't noted it before. I know I touched on it a little bit, but it took me until now to realize his true beauty. But of course that isn't nearly the most important thing. I feel like we are one in the same. Meaning I feel like we are connected somehow in spirit. I've felt this connection since the beginning, but it's even stronger now.
The only thing I can think of that makes me a little weary is the true reasoning behind why he dumped me. He always just says he "wasn't thinking" or he doesn't know why he did it. He's too smart of a kid to really mean that and I think he's covering up something. I'm not going to question him about it though because he seems completely over it and committed to me now.
What I think is the most amazing thing is the fact that he sometimes mentions his future and how he plans to make me a part of it. He always blushes when he talks about it, but he sometimes talks about us moving in together after college and getting married and adopting and growing old together. I guess this is a normal thing for a serious couple to do, but I think it's the sweetest thing I've ever heard. I know that we are young, and young love usually isn't the smartest thing, but I see absolutely nothing wrong with us spending our lives together. He accepts the fact that I'm attracted to younger boys, and that would be my biggest secret in a relationship, yet I can be honest with him about it. Now that doesn't mean I go around the city pointing out cute boys to him, but occasionally he will make a comment about a boy in a store or something saying "I bet you'd like him". He's usually right.
So for the summer, what would you like me to write about? I'm happy to write every day as long as I have some topics. I'm going to Mikey's house to work on a project with him tomorrow. We will see if that stirs up some emotional drama for my fragile heart.
Posted by Tristan Skyler at 4:33 PM