Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Brother Lover

No, this entry isn't about incest. Sorry if I got your hopes up.

It's about my relationship with David.

I'm not doubting it already, if that's what you're thinking. I think it is going great and seeming much more like a relationship than what I had with Jason. Saturday we were together all day and he wasn't afraid to touch me or hold me by the waist in public. To be perfectly honest, I did feel a little uncomfortable at times with this public display of affection, if you can call it that. Not that it didn't feel great, but I know we got some stairs from people that wouldn't approve of us being gay. But that aside, the day went great and the bus ride back from the event we went to was even better. We got the whole back row to ourselves so we cuddled together and I rested my head on his chest. We ended the night with 2 goodnight kisses. He texted me later apologizing for being a horrible kisser, but in reality it was probably my fault due to my lack of experience.

But the more I'm with David, I see something that I never saw with Jason but did with Mikey. I feel almost like I'm filling a "big brother" role for David. I'm not sure why, as he's only a year and a half younger than me. But a lot of the time I feel the need to protect him and make sure he doesn't do anything stupid. Maybe it's just because I felt that Jason didn't need any guidance. David has about the same maturity level as Mikey, which I like a lot. So I guess this whole big brother feeling is a good thing?

I'm meeting with David in a few hours to go to dinner. Hopefully we get some cuddling time in there somewhere as well!


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