I will skip the details, but basicaly after a three day build up with Jason, I experienced my first blowjob session. Giving him one was the easy part. I actually think I did a really good job at it. No, I didn't swallow. Mainly because I was scared I would gag and embarass myself, but he didn't seem to mind.
We went back to cuddling and after a while I told him I was ready whenever he was. I told him that this was the part I was most nervous about. He undid my pants for me and pulled them and my boxers down. Luckily I was able to be hard throughout the nervousness. He began sucking almost immediately. The first thing I felt was the warmth, and the feeling of his lips that I had felt during our kisses. I was telling myself to not cum too early because I wanted to give it time. After about 3 minutes, I was getting worried. I wasn't nearing an orgasm at all, and my penis was beginning to feel numb from all the motion. I told him maybe he should just try jacking me off for a while, which he did. But still I just wasn't feeling turned on. I can only compare it to the feeling of trying to masturbate once you have just cummed from masturbating. It's like I had no sexual drive at all. Which is crazy because I did when I was blowing him. After about 6 minutes I told him I'd try myself and then let him take over when I got close. So I began to masturbate while he watched. It still felt numb. I got to a point where I felt that with a few more strokes I would cum so I let him take over. But I lost that feeling once it got back in his mouth. After 10 minutes I just told him to forget it.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I've never had a problem with orgasming before. In my bedroom I can cum after like 2 minutes if I was in a rush. Maybe I was just too nervous, or maybe he just wasn't going fast enough. I didn't want to make him go too fast though. I'm not even sure if that would have helped. I even tried to think of Mikey while he was doing it but that didn't last long because I felt bad about it. I was so embarrassed after. He told me it was fine and he faked his first orgasm while with his ex. But I still don't know if that was true or he was just trying to make me feel better. But no matter how okay he was with it, I still felt like I let myself down.
Is this normal? Do guys normally have trouble cumming their first time? Would it have been better if we started with handjobs and not blowjobs? Tell me your stories and let me know if I'm alone or not in this.