I have decided that I am going to take a new direction with the blog. I had a long chat with one of my readers and old friends last night and he made me realize that there was no point in recording my relationship moment by moment. If Jason were ever to find the blog, however impossible that may seem, it wouldn't just put an instant end to our relationship, it would also hurt him deeper than that. Since he hasn't trusted his sexuality with very many people, if I break that trust then he may not have anyone at all. I do not want to risk that. While the reader that I chatted with did assure me that he would not inform Jason of the blog, it did worry me a bit with how much power he did have over me. But don't think I am making this change only because of my discussion with him. Because I can honestly see where he is coming from and could not bear the chance of Jason finding out about anything a write here. I fear he may think I was trying to exploit him and our relationship, but as you know that is not my goal at all.
I created this blog as a way to express my thoughts and feelings involving my sexuality. At the time, I had nothing more than a few crushes with no motive to make any advancements towards them. It started with Blake, then Duncan, then eventually Mikey. That's where I fear the blog took a wrong direction. I began focussing on every single thing we did together and pretty much made a fairly-accurate record of our lives together for months. While I do see value in doing this, I should have done that on a personal level and not publically in this blog. I did the same with Jason, but as it became obvious a relationship was developing was when I realized the harm that could be caused by this.
So... from now on I will take a Topic Based Approach to TristanTalks. This meaning, I will go back to writing about specific topics instead of a record of my daily life and experiences.
Here are a few examples of entries with this approach:
I don't mean to disappoint anyone who reads this blog for what it was: a daily record of my life. I will still keep you updated things, but in a more ambiguous way mixed into my future entries. In a way that will not hurt anyone, even if my blog was discovered by him.
However, I do need some topics from you guys to discuss. It can be anything related to me and my sexuality. It can also be about being a boy-lover. Or if you would rather find out my opinion on specific topics, please suggest those as well.
You can contact me either by an anonymous comment or by email at Tristan@TristanTalks.com.
One last thing: I want to hear your opinion on this change. Let me know if you like/dislike it and why.
To a New Direction,