Friday, August 5, 2011

Dreams Are All That Remains

I had a dream the other night that I felt would be interesting to share. But before I get to that I wanted to discuss something else. The last time I heard from Mikey was the morning of August 3rd, when he was telling me about failing his permit test but going ti try again the next day. I tried calling him yesterday afternoon to see how he did but his phone was off. I let it go and figured he was just busy. Today I tried calling around 11 and the same thing happened, it went straight to voicemail. I posted on his Facebook wall "Where have you been? Your phone has been off for 2 days...". Again, I wasn't too worried, but it was very unusual since for the past week he has been calling me at least 3 times a day.

But what really got to me happened about an hour ago. Dylan commented on Mikey's post by me saying "He's good I'm here with him". Wow. Mikey had spent the past 3 days that we talked complaining about Dylan and now they are together at Mikey's house and no one has made an attempt to contact me? It doesn't bother me that he is there, it's just the fact that Mikey has seemed to forget that I existed when I only have one week left. I don't think I mentioned this, but on August 2nd I went to his house while another friend was there but the entire time it felt like he was distant, and when his friend left I left soon after, and unlike usual, he didn't object. It didn't really bother me but when I put this all together it really does. I do not plan on letting this slide, and I will definitely mention to him next time he calls that it upset me that he has pretty much ignored me for 3 days. Even if it isn't intentional, it bothers me. Did his talking to Dylan turn him against me? Or is his mom telling him he can't hang out with me. I don't know but I intend to find out.

 But now to the dream. This actually happened Wednesday night but I still remember it clearly. In the dream, Mikey and I were at this tall condo building at the beach. We were walking outside barefoot, and it was sunset with a purple sky. The strange thing was, the ocean was full of ice. Not out in the distance but closer to the shore were small piles of snow and ice formed on the beach and in the water. However, the weather was just barely cool, with a slight breeze. There was a sign along the dunes with a picture of the sun on it that said "Summer Fun!", but it was old and rusty. In the dream, Mikey was very joyful and smiling the entire time. Our conversation was seemingly normal, talking about the books he was required to read for school the next year and what I thought of them. This conversation went on for about 5 minutes dream-time, but then we noticed a large rain cloud and rain in the distance closing in on the shore from the mainland. We started to head inside the condo, his room was on the first story. Then.... Dylan texted me and woke me up.

I wanted to share this with you because after 2 days I have done sort of an analysis of it. In no way am I saying this is 100% accurate but it makes a lot of sense to me. The sunset, rusty "summer" sign, and icy water all symbolize the end of summer and my time with Mikey. However, his spirit goes on and is joyful, even until the end. The rain cloud represents dark times coming, which could either be me adjusting to being without him (which I initially thought), or what is happening right now with him ignoring me.

It just seems sort of weird that all these details that I remember make sense. I'm a very detailed dreamer, and dreams like this aren't rare, but I don't usually dream about Mikey, well lately that is. If you have a different interpretation of my dream feel free to share, and also if you have any suggestions as to why Mikey is ignoring me, if he is at all.

Hey, this dream would be a good closing scene for my movie, which might be titled "Summer Fun", haha.


1 comment:

  1. Mikey is ignoring you but not because he doesn't want to be with you but because losing you will be painful.