Well, it's the end of my third day without Mikey, and it's not getting this better. As you've probably noticed, I tend to get VERY attached to the guys I like. Well, even moreso with Mikey because he has been so responsive to me. He's off on a week long youth camp and won't be back until Sunday. Every night before bed I think of what he might be doing and if he thought about me at any time during the day.
I hate to admit this, but I also am hoping he is lonely at camp and being ignored. That sounds like a HORRIBLE thing to say, but I guess I'm just jealous and don't want any guy to take my place, you know? I think I've shown him the most attention out of any of his friends, and I know that he likes that. I just don't want him getting that from anywhere else. Well besides his parents of course.
I know I'll probably never have him to myself like I want, but it's nice to wish. I plan to text him a day or 2 after he gets home and ask if he wants to hang out and talk about how camp went. I want to hear everything, even the stuff he probably promised not to tell anyone. There aren't any gay guys going, but there are lots of slutty girls. I'm really hoping he's smarter than that, and gayer than that too. He's a virgin, and I want him to stay that way... for now. What's surprising is that all his other friends are constantly getting involved with girls sexually, yet he refuses. He's had many opportunities, but turned them down.
I just think he's saving it for me ;)
That's all I have to update you on now. Thanks for all the comments on my last entry.