At what point does looking at pictures of naked people switch from general curiosity to pornography?
I've been interested in the same age group of boys since I was 12 or 13. At the time, I visited a lot of boylove sites (Yes, in case you didn't know, young guys actually look at those too. I did anyways...). I enjoyed looking at pictures of boys my age, especially their "privates". I guess it was sort of for comparison at the time. I did come across some of the illegal kind of pictures but it scared me enough that I didn't look at that for quite some time. Not by the content, but by the fact that if I were caught I would be in big trouble. I remember looking at several "boys art sites" as they were called with nude pictures of boys (nonsexual) and found those very arousing. I remember when I was 12 my mom caught me looking at one once. She didn't say much except for "that's something your father would do". I'm assuming she meant the porn part... not the fact that it was boys. Hopefully, lol. I don't think she saw enough of it to actually realize what I was looking at. I almost got caught several times actually. I would always quickly turn my computer off and use the excuse of it freezing. Yeah right, she knew. Anyways, at the age of 14 or 15 I began to explore deeper into sites and eventually stumbled upon the not-so-innocent kind. Again, it scared me, but I couldn't help looking. It was very exciting at the time to see boys my age and younger doing sexual stuff together. The ones with older men in them disgusted me though, and couldn't imagine that boys were forced to do some of those things.
As I got older, I realized that this was a real problem and could cause serious legal ramifications when I became an adult. Now, I stick to mostly nonnude models to get my "pleasure". Even though I'm still a minor, I worry about what I will be like when I'm 18 and in college. I defintiely can't be looking at stuff like that. I'd rather not risk getting kicked out of school. Sadly, regular gay porn doesn't interest me at all unless the guys look really young. And that's a rarity because even with the makeup and photoshop work, their bodies no longer look like kids or young teens. It's not that I'm grossed out by it, I'm not. It's just that mentally I'd rather see younger guys experimenting.
I fear I may have gone into too much detail in this post. Please don't think of me in a bad way. I'd never do anything to force a boy to have sex with me. That's not what I'm saying at all. I'm just saying that younger boys are my preference, but I know in today's society that is taboo and to see any of that is illegal.
My next entry will be on experimentation. I'm going to really open up to you, and hopefully not regret it.
In other news, you may have noticed I added a picture to my profile. Yes, it's really me. It's from about a year and a half ago, and I did a lot of editing to make myself look at least a little attractive, even though I know I'm not.
Oh, another hobby of mine: photoshopping boys to look even cuter. So if you have any pictures you want me to edit for you let me know. I can make any boy look beautiful. I hope to get an email set up for this blog very soon but for now just leave me links in the comments.